All About…if I ever lose you…an excerpt from…”Impressions”, a short story collection…coming soon to ebook.
Everything in my life seemed to be at a high point…making all the right contacts…climbing the corporate ladder…getting to where I wanted to be.
I was whole…complete…satisfied with the blessings God had sprinkled over my life.
Of course…I was single, but I had gotten used to being single.
Celibacy…meditation…and focus were the virtues that made life full.
Then…you came along.
I still remember the crowded room…you were in the over flow on the second level balcony.
As I returned to my seat from lifting my tithes and offerings to Jehovah…I saw your face.
I was not looking for anything, but my heart was open to receive whatever God had for me.
As my attention was drawn to you…I felt my spirit speak.
It was as clear as my words are now.
“You have accomplished all that I have prepared for you…you can no longer move forward without that which you have been prepared for.”
I didn’t understand it, but my spirit would not allow me to leave that service without seeking you out.
I made my way to the overflow on the second level…and you were gone.
I waited out front, but I never saw you come out.
I came back to the Wednesday night study…every Wednesday for the next three months…to be filled…and with hopes of finding you.
Then…the night that the devil had been working the hardest to overthrow…our victory…you ended up shoulder to shoulder with me at the alter…the place that is designed for the Spirit to refuel us.
The Pastor asked us to greet the person to our right side.
I opened my eyes…to obey the Spirit that was commanding him.
My heart stumbled.
You moved seamlessly to embrace your brother in Christ.
Your embrace was my refueling.
Your touch was my new direction.
I still remember what I said, “I’ve been looking for you all my life.”
My statement should have been shocking to you…given the situation.
But you simply answered, “And now you have found me.”
It might sound silly, but I fell in love with you right there at the alter.
Where else in this whole wide world…could a bond of eternity…begin to be formed…better than the place ordained for souls to be saved.
It was not instant, but our lives began to adhere slowly over time…our souls became one…before our flesh had a chance to join as one.
Now more than two decades later…we have built so much, won so many victories, invested so much into each other…that no man can break asunder…what God has bound in Heaven.
If I was to lose you…having to live life without you…just would not be living at all.
Since leaving that alter…that very first Wednesday night…and laying eyes on your face…it’s been…All About You.